~SuperDecoy

so lately i've been kind of down. and it's not cool. because it's not like i want to be down. i just sort of am.

first it was the media. they were being bitches and harassing myself and mr j and i felt completely responsible for whatever shit he was feeling... and i still do, even though everyone keeps saying it's not my fault.

so i felt bad about that... and i kept not looking forward to school every day because people would shit on me about losing my passport and stuff...

and then mr j quit mun, and i felt responsible for that...

and then i got kind of excited. the italy kids banded together and started to try to do some things... which made me happy. and it's a good group of people, so it was nice just to get together even...

and then mr j said he was starting forensics league, which sounded like so much fun. and even though i'm a senior, i could still go to like 2 conferences. i was really looking forward to that. and i was looking forward to getting together secretly this saturday to orchestrate something...

but then the administration got so many complaints about there being no more mun that they started it again with a new advisor. because mr j refuses to do it anymore. and i know that most of the mun people will not be happy with this--mr j makes the club.

and the administration decided that since there were going to be so many people doing mun, they didn't need forensics league any more... so now no forensics league...

and our get-together on saturday was dependent on there being no mun... ::vagueness::

and i got wait-listed at the only school i thought i might actually have a chance at getting into.

and all that happened in one day.

and now i'm sad... and i don't really have much to look forward to...

and it's not cool.

:/